Tired.

[katan]

This is somewhat hard for me...as I am not used to asking for help. To start off let me tell you a little bit about myself. I'm 29 years old. I am a preschool teacher and work full time. Although I am 29, I feel like I'm 50. I come from a family of four. My mum, dad, younger sister and myself. When I was 14 years old, my mum fell ill. Being of south Asian background, my dad, who is very traditional, didn't know how to cook, clean or look after his children. Although, please do not get me wrong, he is a very hard worker. I took on the responsibilities that were typically my mum's. I learned to cook, clean and take care of my sister, keep up my grades, and visit my mum ever night and spend the weekends with her. My days would start at 4am and wouldn't end until around midnight, after doing homework and prep for the following day. I wasn't a typical teen. After my mum becoming disabled and sent home from the hospital I continued to take care of her. I dropped out of university to help my dad financially, because he had lost his job. After which he started his own business. So I would take courses online, work a full time job, run a part time business of my own, help out with the family business, cook clean, take care of my sister,and look after my mother. During this time I have never asked for anything let alone credit for my hard work. I took my parents financial dept upon my shoulders to save the house when my dad claimed bankruptcy, to save our home. Mostly on credit cards. I had bought a car, which saved me great amounts of time...a car which i have driven for 13 years of my life. However in march of this year, the engine died. It's a GMC tracker '89. I do not have the money to purchase another vehicle, nor do I have the skill or money to fix the car. The little money I have saved up may buy a new engine, but I have not yet found one or anyone who can help me fix the car. So now, to add to my very busy schedule, I also have to commute a total of 3 hours/day to work. I have no social life. I feel like I'm at a breaking point. I guess, what I'm asking for, is a)a few kind words to help me build strength once again to continue my commitments to my family. b)any assistance with a car or fixing my old one. c) a good nights sleep with no worries.

Sincerely,
A very tired soul

[guardianangel]

you are a god send and serve a huge purpose on this earth. i know those words probably dont make you feel any better or help with your issues but keep faith, keep plugging away and things will happen. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.